In two weeks, any fears about you being born too early will be removed.
I felt a couple months ago that you were spiritually/mentally ready to be born, and that we were both just waiting on your body to catch up. I’ve kept telling you that it wasn’t time, but soon we will dance the life-giving dance together.
I still can’t quite comprehend the whole thing.
I feel somewhat anxious – nervous – excited.
It won’t seem real until it happens – regardless of how many times I look at how my body has changed over these past months.
I’ll be at nature’s mercy; trusting that my body can remember what it went through during birth, and that it will be as accomodating as possible to your body during yours.
I’ve perceived you as being somewhat shy.
If anyone other than I place a hand on my stomach when you move, you usually stop moving.
I still don’t know what orientation you are, but as I write, I’m feeling an abundance of movement from my sternum to my right side, up by my ribcage.
There’s been a lump of something on my left side under my ribcage quite regularly, but I can’t tell if it’s a bottom or a head. It feels somewhat hard, but it doesn’t pivot in the way that I’d imagine your head might.
I’ve been visualizing you in a head-down position, and have also been trying to tell you to make sure your head is down … so I’ll just have to trust you to do the rest.
I believe your birth will be beautiful.
Not that you’ll be able to appreciate it as soon as your born, but I’m going to decorate the Mezzanine (your birthing room) as beautifully as possible.
This room will be a sanctuary, and I’ll try to spend as much time in there as possible so that it’s filled with as much loving energy as it can hold.
The dogs love playing in the mezzanine, so I imagine that it already has a very welcoming and playful feel.
I ordered the pool today, the scale to measure your weight shipped today.
All of your blankets will be washed over the next couple of weeks, and then we’ll slowly start washing all of the clothes we’ve been given for you.
The studio lighting will be moved from the old house over the next 7 days, and we will be setting up a little table ready for your newborn photos.
We have sealed the windows to ensure that the temperature in the room can be moderated as easily as possible, and once the plumbing extension has been valved to allow a hose to reach the pool, we’ll be able to moderate the temperature of the hot water heater so that everything is optimum (First stage of labour: 36 degrees C (97 degrees F), Second stage of labour: 37-37.5 degrees C (99-100 degrees F)).
Some days it feels like you could be here any second … other days it feels like there is still so far to go.
I must be patient.
You will come when you’re ready.